6 weeks not enough time

When you hear six weeks, most people think WOW that is a long time.  That is what I thought seven weeks ago.  

  Six weeks ago today I gave birth to the most precious little girl.  I brought her home from the hospital still thinking that by week 6 I would be ready to go back to work.  Boy was I wrong.  As I sit here today with her sleeping next to me looking so Innocent and sweet I think how can I leave her?  I think about leaving her with the baby sitter.  Will they play with her like I do?  Will she have a good time?  Will they hold her and smile at her?  I know deep down the answer to all of these questions is yes, but there is another part of me that feels so guilty.  

    I worked in daycare for many years and I watched so many parents come in and have a hard time leaving their crying kid.  I would always tell them they will be okay just leave them.  Now I'm standing in those parents' shoes and I don't want to leave.  

   I am lucky in the fact that I only have to go back to work for 10 weeks and then I get summer vacation.  I also know that my "kids" at school have missed me and will have big smiles for me when I get back.  I also know that my co-workers are supportive and are ready for me to come back.  So why do I still have that pit in the bottom of my stomach? Why do I still have the tears rolling down my face?

It is amazing how a 6lb human can change my life forever.  

So that in summary is what my blog will be about.  It will be about my daily adventures with a child, while balancing a career as a teacher, a loving wife and devoted dog lover to my dog.  

  Can I do all of it without anyone feeling left out?  Stay tuned to find out!